Serial Obsessive
I stumbled across a reference today, that someone had written about themselves. (Sorry I've lost the link, if I track it down, I'll add it here later. )
In this admission, they declared themselves to be a serial obsessive, and went on to explain what that meant to them. The gist of which was that, this person would devote all their waking attention on one thing, then slowly peter out, then in the final stages of the current obsession, find something new to obsess about. Thus continuing the cycle.
This struck a cord.
I have had a quick look at my actions over the last few years, no scratch that, over all my adult life since teenagedom, and I have come to the conclusion that I too am a serial obsessive, although in my case, I think I am a little more "layered" in my obsessional manner.
I tend to fixate on one major thing, but at the same time I am dealing with many minor obsessings. For example right now my primary fixation is pretty much obvious to everyone that knows me (even slightly), but I have an inordinate number of things I am devoting my time to when I am not dealing with my primary compulsion.
I'm pretty sure this behaviour is not good for the soul, certainly it isn't good for my soul, and I'm relatively sure its not helping the people around me in any way shape or form.
Here's a quick example of what runs though my head for a minute or so:
Problem is that the major obsession right now, is pretty sure to become harmful at some point. Once again, I'd like to point out that insight into the problem does not help with the rectification.
In this admission, they declared themselves to be a serial obsessive, and went on to explain what that meant to them. The gist of which was that, this person would devote all their waking attention on one thing, then slowly peter out, then in the final stages of the current obsession, find something new to obsess about. Thus continuing the cycle.
This struck a cord.
I have had a quick look at my actions over the last few years, no scratch that, over all my adult life since teenagedom, and I have come to the conclusion that I too am a serial obsessive, although in my case, I think I am a little more "layered" in my obsessional manner.
I tend to fixate on one major thing, but at the same time I am dealing with many minor obsessings. For example right now my primary fixation is pretty much obvious to everyone that knows me (even slightly), but I have an inordinate number of things I am devoting my time to when I am not dealing with my primary compulsion.
I'm pretty sure this behaviour is not good for the soul, certainly it isn't good for my soul, and I'm relatively sure its not helping the people around me in any way shape or form.
Here's a quick example of what runs though my head for a minute or so:
- BIG - The primary craze in my life right now.
- Kingdom of Loathing
- BIG
- Overcoming Overeating
- Getting Things Done
- BIG
- Looking for a new job
- Fixing my TiVo
- BIG
- BIG
- Cooking
- Eating
- BIG
- Cleaning
- Introspecting
- BIG
- Blogging
- BIG
- Blogging
- Eating
- BIG
- Exercise
- Weight
- BIG
- BIG
- Blogging
- Eating
- Weight
- BIG
Problem is that the major obsession right now, is pretty sure to become harmful at some point. Once again, I'd like to point out that insight into the problem does not help with the rectification.
posted by C at 10:54 pm
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